Being Mommy while Ill

I haven't written on here much lately.  One reason has been because fibromyalgia exhausts me.  Some days the pain is worse and I think, I can deal with the fatigue...just not this pain.  And then others the reverse is true and I think, Oh, if only I wasn't so tired.  I can deal with pain but not this fatigue.  Along with this comes many difficult feelings.  Why?  Why do I have to get sick when I am still young and my children are so young?  And I can't keep up with the house.  Poor Jared has to do so much.  I feel so useless.  Why can't I just pull myself together and do more?  It does feel hopeless on some days.  Knowing that right now there is no cure, so this is how life is, and will be, if God decides not to heal me this side of Heaven. 
The LORD has been so faithful to convict my spirit when I have these thoughts.  And when I cry.  Yes, lots of tears have been shed.  But I really believe He has a purpose in my suffering that is good for me and good for my family.  The other night He led me to take some time and think about the things that I can still do for my family.  Here is what I came up with.
-I can snuggle my kids in the morning.
-I can kiss away their owies.  Sure others could, but there is something special about a Mommy-kiss.
-I can love them, so deeply, including all aspects of love: affection (emotional, physical, verbal), moral (law of love - in action), basic needs (do not need an immaculate home for this!), discipline (forming habits, correction, instruction)
-I can homeschool them with a mother's love, knowing my children.
-I can listen to them.
-I can create special memories - creative, doing what I can do at home, simple
-I can pray for them as a mother, teach them about God, lead them in devotion to God, to worship Him.
-I can be an example of faith through suffering.
I don't mean for this list to glorify myself. Of course these things can only be done in God's strength.  I'm learning each morning to pray as I get out of bed that He will give me strength for each task I need to do that day.  But this list is meant to encourage myself when I feel useless because of all that I can't do anymore.  When I long for the days where I could clean more than one room in my house without a nap, cook supper without needing to lie down afterward, do art projects with the kids.  I need to remember what I can still do.  And these are the things that matter.  I am so so thankful.